I have been overweight all of my life. At a young age, I often stopped playing early in games that required heavy running and movements as it pained to do these activities for long. The fear of being ridiculed or being excluded from activities sometimes forced me into pushing myself which was not necessarily a bad thing because it allowed me to get in some form of exercise.
I was the only overweight child in the house which made it difficult for my parents. They often felt that putting one on a diet while the rest were free to eat what they wanted was somewhat cruel. I am of Caribbean background and I can honestly say that eating home cooked meals was considered to be healthy despite the amount of carbs on your plate.
Eating unhealthy meant that you were eating burgers, pizza, fried chicken etc…. but if the chicken was fried in the same dwelling you rested your head… it some how was regarded as healthy. This was the dilemma.
Around the age of 12 my parents became concerned and even looked in what was once known as fat camp but once again they were reluctant in allowing their child to sleep out and not having control in what was going on. I forgive my parents because had they know better, they would have certainly done better. And can I honestly continue to blame them when I have been an adult for half of my life and did not succeed in shedding the weight. I mean I have tried but have failed to succeed. I have now realized why both my parents and I have failed at this great task. We were looking at the task from the wrong perspective. Our goal was for me to lose weight when the goal should have been to be healthy.
I have now made a conscious decision to change eating and exercising habits in hopes of optimizing my health as oppose to losing weight. When I fail to lose 5 to 10 pounds in a certain period of time, it can be damaging to the progress because it sometime makes you feel like what is the point. But when you are more focused on feeling better, eating better, getting rid of ailments, you stick to the plan and notice differences in how you feel. The bonus is that you also shed the weight.
FABZFIT have become a part of my journey and this program is helping me a lot. I have noticed the difference. I love this program because I am held accountable and encouraged, not to lose weight but to form a habit of being healthy while learning to love me and the progress. I do not want to call it a journey as it seems that it will one day end. I think I will rephrase it and say that FABZFIT is helping me shape a new lifestyle one which includes discipline in every aspect of my life.
Congrats! You need to hip me on to this too. Everytime I hear the word diet, I hone in on the "die" and eat my way to comfort. Knowing the culture we come from, I could use an overhaul on how I see food and my health. I'm so proud of you!��
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